Unseen signs of Cancer

In looking thru other fundraising posts and sites I noticed the most successful requests seem to be either about children or show people in distressing states of damage. We see children way too young to be dealing with Cancer: bald heads, IV poles following the everywhere, courageous smiles, parents tears, tubes seeming to come out of any orifice available, and all filled with Hope current med technology will pull them from the despicable hold of Cancer they fight day in and day out.

I’m a 62 yr, old male with Cancer, diagnosed in 2015, out of the blue as happens so often. Multiple Myeloma, a currently incurable Cancer, though very manageable if caught in time. We have a fundraising page on GoFundMe to help with the incredible expense Cancer carries. Including inability to work; trying to survive on SS disability; praying health or financial disasters stay at bay.

If you see me, there’s a good chance you wouldn’t realize I had MM. In my case what I have is serious, but almost wholly internal. The only external clue is the infusion port in my upper right chest, covered by my clothes. This is only a small sign for others unless I explain to them my MM.

For example: my right shoulder blade has been split by the more than 100 lesions which have infiltrated and eaten my bones as MM is a blood disease residing in the marrow in order to wreak the havoc from it’s out of control Darwinian mutation.

From my Bone Marrow transplant and the chemo used I have heart damage. I am left with app 65% of my former heart function. I’ve been told it’s gone. Kaput forever. Coming from someone who’s life has always been active, I am no longer able to summon the strength and ability once available to me. Frustration as well as hidden from view.

Chemo has also left me with neuropathy. Nerve damage irreversible. So I can walk ( with a cane ) but biking, hiking, athletics are no longer part of life. Neuropathy has also reduced, really stopped, my guitar playing. Fingers are not only weak but have a mind of their own.

Chemo has also depleted the energy I used to propel me thru athletics, marriage, raising kids, working my ass off to support those who depended on me.

There’s other unseen issues only I am aware of regularly. Chronic pain haunts me in every endeavor I undertake. The energy required to fight this in order to do anything can be immense.

The primary effect of all this is my hope for a retirement with energy to play with grandkids has been reduced greatly. All else pales when I ponder this.

I think that’s enough and hope I was able to make the point that not all diseases or stages of disease are immediately obvious.

If you can please consider donating to our cause, Incrementalism does work, and reduces donaters pain while ensuring we can share what we have with others.

Shared Pain is Lessened. Shared Joy is Increased.

Thank you from Sam & Deborah.

https://www.gofundme.com/srcbennett-funding&rcid=r01-153753518876-9f7e6fa766944c7c&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w

 

 

Author: sonorasam

Love cats. Gadgets. Reading history, physics, Natural History to Brian Eno. Enjoy Politics to keep my sense of humor sharp. Play country blues guitar. Amateur photographer of bugs. Think I can write (like all of us do). Mountains, Deborah, Everett keep me sane for the most part. Love the Internet, this wild, crazy, frontier that informs, democratizes us. Never thought I would be witness and participant in a culture and world changing technology, but here I am.

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