Thalidomide? Really???

Those of us elders may recall thalidomide. It was prescribed for morning sickness in late 50s or so. It was discontinued, today perhaps blackboxed because it caused severe, grotesque birth defects.

Similar to most chemo drugs, the derivatives of thalidomode – Revlimid, Polymist, Lenalidomide – are quite toxic. However over the years researchers found there were also anti-cancer qualities to thalidomide. When researchers manipulated the molecules to lessen the toxicity, it became one more choice in the arsenal against Cancer. I believe most MM’rs take or have taken one of these drugs over the course of their treatments.

Other Chemo meds are also very toxic by design. Cancer is a nasty mutation. Among it’s many qualities is survivability. It spits off cells that can hide for years until they metastisize from an unsuspected hiding place. Leukemia can cross the brain/body barrier and sneak into the folds and crevices of ones brain only to reappear in the end game. So it seems best practice is to hammer, pound, cut, chase, burn, do whatever to stop Cancer at first sight. Hence, why the LTS (Long Term Survival rates) are moving up albeit all too slowly for those of us with MM. And also why Cancer patients suffer the way we do.

In a macabre way, the MM demographics fall on folks around 65’ish, after a good part of life has been lived. On the other hand, if you’re like me, thoughts of not seeing Grandkids grow up are the most painful of all. Waterfalls of tears have been shed, still, when I think of this. I make no excuses for MM here. Cancer sucks at any time.

I mention all this because I hope patients ask for, and receive, all the Clarity they can from their oncologists about their therapy. It’s vital patients advocate for themselves. No changes may be made, but without clarity, any changes one might have available can’t be discussed.

It’s your life, not their’s.

Sam

Maze of Memory

Support. When I started this MM series of posts, I did have some goal(s) in mind. I thought, after perusing forums, boards, other Cancer sites I had experiences after 4 yrs of MM others might find useful.

Therapeutic. I have found myself fighting this MM funk and had yet to find a way through it. Each and every step required a reserve of energy, which, other than the doing of a thing, had nothing to do with the thing itself.

Information. I found, what I thought, too many posts & responses to be of a shallow character, not really, to my mind, either answering the question, or answering in a way that would give useful info. ( I am much aware of why this is so) There is so much info about MM available, as well as a lot of BS, I think it important to offer solid info and give others the chance to use as they can.

HOPE. Many inquiries come from folks after initial diagnosis. Surprise!!! You have Cancer!!! I believe a primary need at this point is to  offer HOPE. And there is much HOPE for living with MM. All the info, protocols, etc mean squat without HOPE. The MM is manageable. The Garden of HOPE has to be sown and cultivated.


The chronological order I had tried to impose on my MM experiences very quickly fell apart. Memory is an elusive and tricky adversary. I may start with a specific memory but inevitably I am led through the Neuronal Maze (hence Neuronal Catastrophe) of MM memories, ending far afield from where I thought I would be. I knew this was a game I had little chance, or desire, of playing. I apologize for the randomness of my posts for the 1 or 2 who pay attention. What is written here is the complete truth, at least to the extent mind reveals it as I write.


Shared Pain Lessened

Shared Joy Increased

Sam

“Ladies and Gentelmen, here’s one for friendship” Jackson Browne talks about writing These Days and friendship with Gregg since they were 18.

https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10155814318220698&id=312475130697&_rdr

A beautiful song if one can ever lay claim to that title. If you know this song, then you know what folks are talking about and why.

Finding out Gregg helped write it adds more than a touch of mystery and magic to it.